Diary

Love for Election, Not Necessity

Love for Election, Not Necessity

One of my desires is to find someone that wants to be my half and partner for life.

I imagine that if you find yourself reading this, you might identify with it. The desire to have companionship is fundamental and human. The thing is that plenty of times, we accept and let people into our lives not necessarily because we like them but because we are afraid of being alone.

It's almost like eating junk food; you know it's not good for your stomach, but it looks so appealing that you still eat it and then deal with the stomach aches and bloating later.

For a long time, this was happening to me. My romantic life was making me sick. I was fascinated and even in love with people purely because of the potential of what they could become. I'd sometimes have thoughts like, "Ummm, don't go there, Donna," but I'd go there anyway and eat that metaphorical junk food that wasn't doing me any good.

After a couple of indigestions and lots of emotional dread, I decided to take a step back and stop seeking people's company just for the sake of not being alone.

When we choose people, we have to know what we want and do so with a lot of awareness. Thanks to this experiment, I have been able to relate a lot better to people.

I am grateful to say that everyone in my life is there because I want them there.

So basically, what I'm trying to say with all of this is: let's start loving by choice, not by necessity or fear of being alone.